Dark memories laying aside ,Untamed demons playing around ,you found yourself sitting in the middle of this dark room having macabre thoughts. with mourning in your eyes and then you try to elude from the whole situation and act as a normal human.
With a deny to the restlessness you were feeling inside you try to leave the room and start strolling toward the door making a fail attempt to leave all thing behind .The things which now became an inseparable part of your life as you try to do so the weight on your shoulders can be felt easily. you are being crushed beneath the erroneous choices you have made in the past.
Those emotions on your face are trying to hide the fact that your soul is torn apart already ,may be a small sign of life trying to survive inside this hollow body in some murky region. But with all those restriction on your actions,made you to make utterly ridiculous choices over your principles and morals ,
those choices have destroyed your beliefs and you feel like you have been trounced by the LIFE itself
You have reached to the door and you just want to open that and get escaped from all these dark thoughts and illusion.Whats on your mind is this that Behind this door there is a world of happiness and rainbows. You touched the door knob and about to open it but suddenly got grabbed by demons present in the room they are like those thoughts that grab you and pull you back from doing anything new as if they are putting the thoughts in mind that ,what IF it doesn’t work out right ?,What if everything doesn’t go out by the plan ?
They drag you all across the room towards the same corner from which you escaped earlier .you want to decimate your demons but they are strong enough to tackle your will power as they are feed from the fear that we have and we all can bet on that
fear is the strongest fuel that we can feed to the opportunities to kill itself.
You have been thrown back to your corner which gradually turning into your comfort zone. you find yourself defeated ,insubstantial there is no more back fights from you .You start believing in fate you think this is whats written in your faith and there never is and will be power to fight against all those odds of your freedom. you have been a prisoner to that dark corner where you feel like there is no new beginning. there is no light at the end of the tunnel and at least not for you.
There is a pain inside of you emerging slowly,you want to scream and shout but there no one to listen more of like no one want to listen .All you want to believe, that’s all of this is an illusion and nothing is real.you closed your eyes with a HOPE that when you open them back again these all dark thoughts these demons ,this dark room all be gone .In those moments when your eyes closed you can hear your inside voices clearly they have been asking you to give up ,accept the defeat and embrace this darkness around you and just lie there in that room forever.
But this is not what you really are, you never have given up without a fight .There are only a few moments come in life where you can show your true mettle.These dark thoughts and memories are just want to see your scarlet blood on some shiny sharp objects lacerate your wrist , so that those tiny drops of blood just start falling like the drizzle rain and the pain you will sense will be outrageous and you can actually feel your body going numb can be defined as it is
like getting high on agony with haunting thoughts.
but at least it will be quick and you do not have to stay in this room, forever . A impulsive pain and in a minute all of those dark thoughts and the inside voices gone.you feel little bit dizzy and then body collapsed and hit the ground and the whole floor seems washed up by the blood and then it seems a bodily figure arise from you and it started slowly moving away from that dark corner where you had fallen and that figure is moving across the room towards the door leaving its clear foot prints in that blood of pool it opened the door and left the ROOM.
Is this the only way?
Rationale addiction 